&She`sREENA(:
Sing me to sleep , I`ll see you in my dreams , waiting to say , I miss you , I`m so sorry .
That fire you ignited
Good, bad and undecided
Burns when I stand beside it
Your light is ultraviolet
Visions so insane
Travel unraveling through my brain
Cold when I am denied it
Your light is ultraviolet
Ultraviolet
Sunday, October 14, 2007 / 8:58 AM
Haven't been posting lately..so mani things happened in a matter of daes..I dono how I'm going to cope without him in my life anymore..I neva realised how much he meant to me, how much I loved him and how incomplete my life is without him..till he left me alone..Kissing him goodbye for the last tym on my birthday is something which rly pains my heart..Looking at his face, that once lit up when I told him I'll study hard for not only myself, but for him and my family..His face so soft, so peaceful made my tears flow in a matter of seconds..How he used to make me laugh, how he used to scold me, and then coming to my room to say that no matter how much he scold me, he loves me and wants me to do well..I once promised myself I won't eva cry for him if he eva scolded me again..but now, I juz cry..how much I miss him..how I wish I cud see him smile and hear his laughter..how I wish I cud hold him tight and neva letting go..An angel with wings caught him..and now, he's no longer around me to laugh with me, to joke with me, to be around me..A promise dat he made to me..to raise me up and c me grow..the promise dat made me cry coz he's unable to fulfill it..I noe I shud be happy dat he's gone, hopefully to a beta place..but it's too fast for me to accept it..how I wish I cud hear him wish me Happy Birthday..how I wish he can feed me my birthday cake and say he love me..lyk the years before..but now, he can't do dat anymore..I dono wad I shud feel rite now..happy or sad..He may have walked out of my life for good..but I'm glad he left footprints..without you within me I can’t find no rest..I pray for this heart to be unbroken..but without you all I’m going to be is incomplete..voices tell me I should carry on..but I am swimming in an ocean all alone..I don’t mean to drag it on, but I can’t seem to let you go..I never could imagine, life without you.. from the moment you walked into my world..never knew how long a loving flame could burn..but losing you has forced me to learn..that we can't change the way we feel inside..everytime I try to take a stand at all..I see your face again and I fall..Day after day, time passed away..and I just can't get you off my mind..night after night I hear myself say..why can't this feeling just fade away..there's no one like you (no one like you).. I can't sleep, I just can't breathe.. I don't wanna feel the way that I do, I just wanna be right here with you, I don't wanna see, see us apart, I just wanna say it straight from my heart: I miss you..living without you, will tear me apart..when you left I lost a part of me..It's still so hard to believe..I can't sleep at night when you are on my mind I wish I can turn back tym and say I love you one last tym..
The last tym
It never occurred to me, That was the last time it'll be, The last time we laughed, The last time we went daft, The last time you told me, "When Mom Dad dies I'll be all you see".
Couldn't it be longer? Why did it got shorter? You were so precious, I wanted to tell you good news first. It was a shock to me, I came home it was you I couldn't see, My big brother whom I look up to, I'm quite sure I'll miss you too.
I'll hope you'll take care of me from above, I'll make your wishes come true to show my love, And affection for the one I adore, From above look at me soar. You just had to leave God loves you well, I'll just smile and pray May God save you from hell, When I get older and think of you, I'll think of all the mistakes that we both do,
It never occurred you'll leave me here, Standing alone crying for someone I dear, But I know you wouldn't wish me crying, I'll smile and pray for you sighing, I can't see your smile, your face, your eyes, Where all my love for you lies,
Brother I love you and always will, Take care of me Help my heart heal, Cause I can't bear the thought you'll be gone, I will be dark and all alone, Brother be by my side when I need you, Be with me cause... That last time wasn't enough, That last time it was too fast, That last time.... I wasn't prepared.
This poem was written by Punk Jie or punkrockingeek..thank you so much for writing this beautiful poem for me..and I cried when I read ur poem too..thx for being with me all this while, giving me a hug when I needed it the most and above all, thx for being my bestie and sista..
DheGhurl♥
&She`sREENA(:
16 going 17.
October Thirteenth.
TechnoFreak.
